tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78352332197026169392011-04-21T14:49:45.175-07:00^^Princess Cia^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/02414720789193065234noreply@blogger.comBlogger31100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835233219702616939.post-25023154505825849002008-03-08T08:32:00.000-08:002008-03-08T09:00:59.360-08:00I just realise that I cant make any decision when needed, and I seems to be afraid of things I should not be afraid of.. but He said, we need not be afraid because He is with us all the way...<br /><br />today He spoke to me, to take a breath and think of things I have done.. and I realide that I need to think more of Him, of what He has done in my life..<br /><br />today, I state that I did not break my dreams, the answer of my prayer has come..I am better and stronger than birds.. I can and willing to built up my dreams and fly again.. this time, I will not fall..<br /><br />I know he stays beside me during my downfall or rise, and He is going to do so... For all my mistake, forgive me,, and for all that I cant do by my self, or even things that I can do by my self, lead me through it..<br /><br />remind me for all the wrong way that I had gone through, especially my conduct towards others,and help me to solve my doubt and help me make wiser decision.. and not cry for all unexpected things...<br /><br />and above all, let me see and feel the glory of yours...<br /><br />080308100<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7835233219702616939-2502315450582584900?l=princesscia.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>^^Princess Cia^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/02414720789193065234noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835233219702616939.post-1534657522253394572008-02-29T06:32:00.000-08:002008-02-29T06:53:11.968-08:00Today, I learned something new.. that life, is not just about studying.... University, is not just about GPA... but, should I pursue my innate interest, to chase back the 'drama queen' throne?? should I sacrifice my future bloody GPA...?<br /><br />there are people who are clever, yet pursuing their own interest... yes, there are.... But, can I be one of them? I cant help staring my eyes over the stage, feeling the willingness to be there... I can see what I could do better on...<br /><br />but then, I doubt my step.... there is a barrier to entry that myself created... If only I did not fall... If only life is not just 24 hours... then and there, I would see myself as a girl that I wanted.... now the choice is here.... which dream should I pursue, drama queen? or simply GPA princess...<br /><br />but, what is successfull in my eyes? Graduated from my university with a gratious GPA but fill my days with studying and studiying, and envy those who are in stage? or, just pursue a normal GPA and give my self a little time to pursue my interest but then get stressfull because of my GPA is dropping? ......<br /><br />I dont know, its just a choice... I am willing to sacrifice somethings in my life, but my heart and my logic always confront.. I wanted to be what I want to be, but things around chasing me... Pride, peers, interests, friends, loneliness... what?<br /><br />am I being myself? or am I just a little princess who is hiding behind my anger?<br /><br />what?! anger of my self, that I cant cope with anymore, that falls unto others?!? no...<br />this is not what I wanted to be...<br /><br />please, let me repeat my days in University, the time before my fall... the days before my change... oh yes, I am not the sweet little princess that u dreamed of anymore my dear... I'm sick.. I just cant tell u, but yes, I am....<br /><br />oh no... can anyone show me a way back to my REAL life????????<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7835233219702616939-153465752225339457?l=princesscia.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>^^Princess Cia^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/02414720789193065234noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835233219702616939.post-15583420521964449232008-02-11T09:39:00.000-08:002008-02-11T09:52:49.296-08:00Again, I wish I could be an angel... Or, If I were an angel, now my wings are a bit broken... For the failure in comms... and the terrible sickness that relentlessly driven me crazy...I know that there's something wrong.. but I just cant escape...<br /><br />Another tiring day... again I feel that, one more day has gone... I dunno whether I did something that meant to someone or for my self either... hoping a lot for help in one side, and hoping to be a leader for my self and perhaps others... hoping to be seen as a great girl... or at least as what I was...<br /><br />I am suffering in my deep research on how I could be my previous image... the great winner, the great hard working gal, the confident speaker, the leader, the great drama player... and most importantly, the lovely princess...<br /><br />it is not that I went on stupid already, it's just that... I dunno how to suffer... I also dunno who initally took my spirit and my talents... I dunno....<br /><br />I know that I must quickly wake up from my long lasting Sleeping Beauty's sleep... but... when I woke up, I already lost my direction.. it seems like, it's not my time anymore... Nobody knows who I was, except my prince charming...<br /><br />the question is, can I be a STAR again? yes I do...<br />Do I believe I can do so? I still doubt....<br /><br /><br />~flawless~ 1202200280154<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7835233219702616939-1558342052196444923?l=princesscia.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>^^Princess Cia^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/02414720789193065234noreply@blogger.com0